reluctance

I am half way through packing my keyboard away and I am fighting such strong feelings of reluctance and resistance.

I am not sure if it is only to do with the piano (my desire to play since childhood)and the fact that me putting it out of reach, shelving it, is also shelving my plans to learn to play.

I have had it ready for use any time I want it for at least 3 years without having touched it so I don't completely understand where this feeling is coming from.

It is accessible (with a bit of work) if I really want to get it out and play it again as will all the things that I find new "homes" for.

I guess maybe I am resisting the removal of my/our computer/study/hobbies room.

Or maybe like with everything I just can't help procrastinating.

I read in one of the blogs I follow that a lot of people procrastinate because they are afraid of not doing things perfectly ... so they don't start things.

I wonder if there is an element of that to some of my procrastination. I don't necessarily think perfection is what I seek, but I do always want to try and do things "the right way" and often I have no idea what the right way is.

The blogs answer to this challenge was to just do it, done not quite perfectly (or in my case not quite right)is better than never started or never attempted or not done.

I like the idea of this. Just wonder if I can put it into practise.

I was planning to sew uni a heat pack and have been putting off starting because I am worried about the look of the finished product.

Hoping I will be able to start it this week.

Another truth about me is that once I do actually start something (although I have started many things and not finished ... ) usually I am gripped by a strong urge to get it done ... as long as I don't start something else more gripping in the meantime.

LOL!!!

OK feeling better about the keyboard now ... and the rest of my rearranging ... I have got the christmas things out of the cupboard which temporarily make it look like I have plenty of space in there to put things into.

Am thinking that Christmas stuff no longer deserves prime placement in the upstairs so it will have to find a new dog proof home downstairs after Xmas this year.

I have also looked up and discovered that we have a lot more (out of reach places) than I am currently using that could take assorted chemicals and cleaners etc that were placed on high shelves when Kt was a baby, but are now sitting virtually untouched taking up prime real estate ...